16 February 2011

maitland v antipoet


i don't fit in lost lonely alienated disconected
Where do I belong, I belong by her side but she is not here
Just around the corner half way around the world 20hr plane flight

FUCK these solid walls, massive rushes of pure pain
this time our narrative face first into desert rock
this spinifex cuts exploding at my thigh
naked again
at sunrise, we're bursting for air
choking on each others skin
we're burning

Head achs can't see clearly can't think clearly con't move on
Why not?
Take my heart out I don't want it
It causes to much pain suffering sadness
RIP IT OUT please

yes - i'm a cave of my former self
and it spins in digital slices
bashing fists into shifts of black time
there is no tick tock tick tock here
just flashes of white and waves of shit

My beautifull world - Nick Cave
I'll be there - Powderfinger
Lovesong - The Cure
Love will tear us apart - Joy Division
It's a god day to die - Robbie Robertson

i wish i could just swallow your black cancer
and walk away, walk away into this cave
this 5 star bitumen noose

How does one get rid of oneself
Suicide bump off kill destroy end
There are a multiple of ways I suppose
Shoot hang drown overdose jump etc etc
Take your pick
Can you try before you buy?
Sample each of them to see which way best suits your needs
desires image of how you wish to leave this world

so, collecting every specimen desires in cement bodies
shelves of past selves and futures yet spent
our feet never touch the concrete
chemicals kickin in too hard, way too soon
our graf strokes fading in 39 degree jarrah memories
a city in denial of itself, a uniform
the waft of the river, the doctor at midday
and our tales get taller by the telling
and you, inside me
like a black snake painted

You wander the streets late at night
Drifting from shadow to shadow
lingering often to watch and look at those
who unlike you drift towards the pools
of light fluro street shop nightclub
Moving towards them you mingle
They don't see hear listen notice you
They look through you like you don't exist

and its true in this mirror of us
you dont exist
maybe you never did

So slipping back into the shadows of memory you walk away

walk away slip back
walk away slip back
walk away walk away

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